So, after seeing Teal Swan a few weeks ago, things have been very different! I feel things differently, like that negative energy. And it's pretty yucky, so yucky I can't be around it!
So, I was in a situation the other day with a friend, and her 21 year old son and her brother. The son's cellphone wasn't working properly, and he was "Freaking out!" My girlfriend was on the phone with the cell phone company, trying to work it out and her son was yelling at her to ask them a question. Her brother was angry because they had just gone to the cell phone store, and they couldn't help him. Her brother had issues with his phone too he was trying to address at the store with no avail. Her brother was upset, angry, and was asking his nephew to go back to the store with him, and his nephew refused. Explaining, "All you want to do is to go back to the store to have an argument with someone and complain!"
I was pretty startled by her brothers negative energy. It was so bad when he walked in, I wanted to leave. I felt it right away this time, this yucky energy I didn't want to be around. We tried to talk, and everything I felt, he disagreed with and argued back. We only barely spoke for a few minutes, and he was disagreeable with me several times. They say everyone is an image of ourselves, then what is he there to teach me? It really taught me a lesson in feeling the energy, and not having to accept "staying in it". It was a mess, I wanted out, and if he didn't leave, I was ready to! This is self love, I would have never even realized this years ago, and would have put up with his low energy, and argued back. But now I realize I have choices, I do not have to put my self in any negative, stomach turning, stressful situations anymore. I have a choice, I can get up and leave!
It's strange to me now how negativity comes head on at me, and I can't be around it. I just want to get out of it and not even have to hear it, waste my energy on it. It was almost as if that's what their main focus is on life, finding the problem, complaining about it, getting angry and wasting all of your time and energy on it! My brother does the same thing, whatever issues he encounters daily from the human race, he complains and bitches about it constantly, he will even call and complain to the person in charge. Is this love? Is this a loving and giving way to be to the world, to each other, to ourselves? And he laughs about it, as if it takes away his negativity. He is the same brother who has been on my case each time I go to visit him, finally now having no desire to go back! And he thinks he is all Love, caring for his family, going to church every Sunday, etc.
I realize no one wants to take responsibility for their own actions. They want to be insulting, argumentive, and critical to you all the time, but don't understand being around them is a choice, regardless if it is family or not, a choice. Do I want to spend my precious time being with family or friends who are mad and angry all the time? Who always find the worse in any situation, and just want to constantly complain about it? What if I want to see the Love and good in everyone and everything? What if I don't want to waste my energy on such negativity? I have wasted so much of my life crying after my divorce for years, I am tired of doing that, being in the past and being so sad. I want happy people around me, happy, loving, kind people that are at peace with themselves. That's pretty much what it is, peace and love within themselves! But, some of us never find it, never look for it, or realize it is missing. So sad, because to me, love is a verb, its not only about giving to you in whatever way I can, it's also about knowing you are in my space and creating immense turmoil, so please leave until you can bring good, positive, loving energy in! Thank you!
Namaste~
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