Monday, June 30, 2014

Day 5 ~ Post Teal's Workshop

Okay, today I decided to take off to the beach, I didn't even run there all week to my surprise!  I love the ocean, it is so calming to me.  When I was divorced, I would run to the beach every Sunday when I was so sad not being with my children.  It actually called me, and it was so comforting. I was busy feeding my soul this week with Teal's awesome energy, soaking it in for myself, and healing.  So, I was totally ready to hit the beach.  Well, I have to say, today was one of the most gorgeous days of the year! And I walked around all day with a light bounce in my walk I haven't had in years.  I felt so grateful, happy and free.  Grateful to have the opportunity to hit the beach, while others worked.  I even passed out at one point while I was laying on my stomach, something I haven't done in years!  I also bumped into a new friend I met on the beach a few weeks ago, a beautiful, happy soul with awesome energy! We talked about energy, and I told her about the workshop I just attended, and about Teal Swan who she is going to check out!  Yay, if I can turn one more person on to Teal, it will have a domino effect, and that is what we want!  It truly was a perfect day.
Then after the beach I headed out to Red Bank, they were having a Country Festival I thought would be fun to attend and my niece and her boyfriend met me there.  It was beautiful on the water, the town is a cool town, very busy and hip.  We hung out in the festival for about an hour, and couldn't wait to eat! So, off we went to a Restaurant, and walked the town while we waited for seating.  This was the first time I had the opportunity to hang out with my nieces boyfriend, who I fell in love with.  He is so cute, so sweet, and so good to my niece, you cannot but love him.  He is friendly like me, talking to the vendors, happily walking around.  We talked a great deal at dinner, even about their future together that she keeps quiet!  I had such an awesome time with them, and we truly enjoyed each others company.  They are planning to marry, and we were talking about their honeymoon!   We didn't leave until 10 pm, and when I arrived home I went to bed.
I can feel how different I feel now when I go out in public.  I feel so joyous and loved!  The people that have come across my path are so nice, friendly, sweet and loving that its strange.  Where were these people before?  Is it because my energy changed to a higher vibration attracting higher vibrational beings!  All in al it's a beautiful thing.  I met another woman on the beach who had four small children and we talked and bonded instantly.  Thank you Teal and the Universe for helping me "see the light", helping me find peace and love in my heart I desperately needed to find!
Namaste
Carol

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Day 4 ~ Post Teal Swan's Workshop

Woke up today in much more body pain than I have all week.  I don't know why.  I don't know if it could have been from the organic decaf I put into my body, or from going to the stores yesterday.  I came home in severe pain, upper back spasms into my neck, I had to stop and take a bath.  It was crazy that my pain increased that much.  Could it really have been the energy from the people that's killing my body?  It was serious pain!  The pain calmed down a little, but still pretty bad.  I took it easy this morning, started writing a bit and saying hello to my friends online.  I had to go see Jessie, my old boss today, to say goodbye and she was going to pay me for the week!  How grateful I am for that.  
While I was driving the same route I have been for two years, my heart jumped for joy never having to travel this way again!!  I appeared with sunflowers, and got to see the two children I won't care for anymore.  It was great to see her and talk to her, she said how she totally, "Gets it, and understands!"  She really softened my heart and made me feel loved, a love that was hard for me to accept before, and now I am embracing it.  When I left, I shouted for joy, singing my heart out all the way home, knowing I am set free to care for myself and no one else for awhile!! Feeling loved and blessed!
Then, driving home I actually got to ask myself, "Boy, what do you want to do?"  I realized I was hungry because I hadn't eaten in awhile, and I was getting dizzy.  But, as I drove by the park, I needed to pull in and stop and I did.  I had to recharge from my visit, walk on the earth and sit with a tree!  How healing that is, and that's just what I did.  And the birds were beautiful, singing their hearts out.  I rested for awhile and enjoyed the earth.  
Then I realized how hungry I was again, and went home to cook.  How liberating it is to be able to be in limbo and not care.  Not care about things getting done, bills getting paid, just having faith in the Universe, knowing it will send me exactly what I need, and wants me to e happy and take care of myself.  I have been embracing my pain by going with my emotions an releasing them.  It totally works!!  I don't even cry long when those past emotions appear, maybe only even  few minutes, and they pass on their own, and I am at peace once again.
After I ate I got on a Sykpe call with my new best buddie Irina!  We talked for two hours about so much stuff.  About how her emotions are taking her back to her past pain, and how she is releasing them.  We talked about some of our new soul friends and how grateful we are and how awesome our trip was.  Irina and I connected the minute we saw one another, she was my instant best friend, and openly telling everyone how lucky she felt to have met me.  She shared her past with me which was pretty tough.  Do you see how it only takes one person to express their pain and past, and it opens the door for others to follow.  What a beautiful flow of energy and healing together.  This is what Teal has done for me, for us, and for humanity.
Tomorrow I will be taking the day to go to the beach for myself.  I am ready to venture out again, and can't wait to see the Ocean, it calls for me!
Namaste
Carol

Day 2, After Teal Swan's Workshop

Woke up at 7:30 again feeling utterly, totally AMAZING!  Like I don't even know the last time I felt this way! Years probably, at least ten years and then who knows.  I have been divorced ten years, and as I am looking back, it was a struggle.  I struggled financially to stay alive, hurting my body along the way by not listening.  Well, no more of that! I am now putting myself totally first, thanks to Teal Swan!  I stayed in again today, like somehow I innately knew, and savored my energy, wanting to keep if for myself.  I cleansed my room more, hung out around the house, just taking it easy.  Cleaning and cleansing is definitely my theme since I have been home.  
I wanted to see my son, so we went out to lunch. He knows about Teal Swan because he is very open to spirituality and I have talked about her before.  When he was an infant, he had alot of trouble falling asleep at night, so I would take him outside and he would stare at the moon and fall asleep!  He still loves the moon.  At age seven he decided to be a vegan like I was, but after my ex family getting on his case for being too thin and needing the meat, he started eating it again.  He also could see the Aura around someone as a young child.  We talked all about Teal's Workshop, and our energy together was amazing.  We always were very close, very connected and still are.  I could tell he was happy to see me happy, excited and passionate about something.  I asked him to take a road trip with me to Boston in August, so I can attend Teal's next workshop and he said sure!! He is going to bring his friend also that I love.  I also asked my daughters as well, but they had no desire to see Boston.  The Universe already knows what would benefit me more, having my son come along and not the girls.  I am excited and thrilled to have him and his friend join me on this adventure, as I know it will be another life changing one!  
I came home still feeling so high, high like I was literally floating, not in myself, foggy.  It's hard to explain, but I just keep going with it!!  So, I am doing just what Teal said to do, have fun, relax, take care of myself and diving down deep straight into those emotions.I decided to watch the video again, and I had a major breakdown.  I tried to view it earlier, but the link would not work! I kept saying that I was not ready to see it yet and that's okay.  It was pretty heavy to see myself talking with my Spiritual Leader and mentor, spilling my pain and past to her.  But, it was very enlightening, so many things clicked when I watched it.  I truly saw how much resistance I had to the pain, "just wanting to heal".  Teal explained on stage to me that I need to just feel the pain, just sit with it, be with it, and it will eventually integrate and go away.  I have been working on this all week, when pain arises, I ask my pain where it is from and I get more visions, I dive into those emotions and see what they are about, and deal with them.  My new mantra is, "I am here with you now"! (from Teal) When I say this to my emotions and inner child it really resonates with me and comforts me, so I use it all the time.  She explains how we abandon ourselves in the trauma and pain as a child, and we feel it.  We need to comfort that child, care for it and talk to it in any way that comforts us.  I have been working on this daily, it just seems to come.
I am so happy and blessed with my new awakening, and my new connection with a very old friend, who I have been waiting to see and come back to in this life.  I will never be the same, things will never be the same, my life will never be the same, and the ones I touch will now be with an open heart of love and compassion!
Namaste
Carol

Day 3 ~ Post Teal Swan's Workshop!

Hello everyone!
i am still feeling really high! I love it, and this energy is amazing.  Today I had to venture out because I needed food.  My daughter was free, and came along with me.  It is wonderful to be out with my daughters, because they change so much.  They open up to things they have on their mind, what's bothering them, and what they want to get done.  Its so nice, I only wonder why it doesn't happen at home.  
We went to three stores, two of which were food stores.  I came home literally crippled in pain, around 7:00 pm, and had to go and take a bath.  It was awful.  I was trying to figure out if it was from the people in the stores.  Do I feel their pain?  Why does their energy effect me?  I never realized how sensitive I was to people and their energy, and now constantly ground myself by concentrating on digging my feet deep into the earth, carrying grounding stones like black tourmaline and hematite, and using the Grounding essential oil I use from Young Living Oils.  I seem to get very dizzy around in a huge crowd, like I did when I was finished talking to Teal Swan.  I stood up very dizzy.  After that episode I am very weary of being in a space with hundreds of people until I figure this all out.  
A few years ago my daughter was crying and upset about something.  When I picked her up in the car, she was so upset my stomach started to hurt me, and I was crippled with a stomach attack!  Being an empath you feel peoples pain, but this was crazy.  I know this is something I have to fix though, because it was too hard being around so many people.
The girls still have been getting snippy, but I still walk away and keep that inner peace.  "Inner peace", it's something I didn't understand until now.  for me it's accepting the past childhood pain and trauma, embracing it, and knowing it's okay.  It's better than okay that I am experiencing this now instead of repressing it as I did in the past.  And now I am WAY better than okay, and truly on my way to freedom, joy and following my bliss!
I love the heck out of you Teal Swan, and I know you know.  Thank you a thousand times over for transforming my life, and I wish you peace, love and light today!
Namaste
Carol

Friday, June 27, 2014

Day 1, after my workshop with Teal Swan, The Spiritual Catalyst

I attended an amazing workshop by Teal Swan on Saturday, June 21st in Chicago.  I just arrived in last night and want to explain my experiences...
Getting home at 12 pm I was exhausted.  But, for some reason I had this crazy energy and had to clean and unclutter my Dining Room.  I was happy, joyous, singing along while I was cleansing.  The type of love and energy that filled my heart there is hard to explain.  It is knowing you are love, and loved unconditionally, feeling like your heart is wide open to love.  A feeling we don't always feel, some of us probably never.  We struggle to feel this love, which is always about "self love", loving yourself, knowing you are worthy and powerful, and more important than anyone else out there that you care about.  It's about putting your feelings first, your self first, without feeling bad about how the other person will react.  It is to worry about caring for you more than you care for them.  It's about finding your joy on a daily basis, asking this question, "How can I find joy today?"  Asking the question, "What could I do to love myself today?"  All of these teachings I have found in my spiritual mentor and leader, Teal Swan.
So, after going to bed at 4:00 in the morning, I awoke at 8:00 feeling totally amazing!  My energy was so high and I felt at peace and content, and happy!!  One thing I had to do today though, was to quit my job.   The pain I have had in my body has been over thirty years, and I can't push myself any longer, caring for small children, giving them my energy when I need it now for myself.  But, since I am a person who always has put others first, I worry about them more than me!  How do I quit when I just committed to a year?  But, I knew after speaking with Teal, I had to. (It was her advice)  But, I was still anxious about it!  So around 11:00 my boss calls, OMG I say, now I have to talk to her!!  We spoke only for a few minutes before I told her I have some news and have to quit.  To my total surprise, she was so understanding.  She explained how they care about me and want me to take care of myself and get healthy!  Why is it hard for us to understand people do care, not everyone is selfish!  I briefly explained my discussion with Teal, and cried and cried to her about my pain, how long I have had it, and how I always just push myself.  Teal explained she saw my energy as "terminally ill"!! Wow, holy shit!! Did that wake me up. For sure, she said, no you can't live your life this way any longer and I knew that.  So, see how awesome the Universe is and how it loves us and wants to help us?  I was so worried about them, and how to quit, and it just came!  And it came in such a loving, compassionate way I was shocked!! And the amazing thing is the more we believe this, the more the Universe helps, so the easier it gets.  It will be like going with the flow down the stream, instead of fighting where you are, racing back up, trying to be in a "better" place!!
After crying on the phone with her, I was actually relieved, and felt like I was SET FREE!  Free from caring for four small children, bathing them, cooking for them, doing homework with them and even wiping their asses!! lol  Free now to take care of me, myself, my pain that I have ignored for years and years!! Teal gave me the "permission" to stop, and sit home and rest and have faith the Universe will respond, and it did.
The rest of my day was filled with such joy and peace and happiness!  I am calm and content without worries of the future and how financial abundance will flow, because I know it will in other ways!!
All of my Love and thanks goes out to this beautiful, amazing, compassionate soul, who only wants to help us grow as individuals, TO HELP CHANGE THE WORLD TO COMPASSION AND LOVE!  I am blessed to have found her teachings, they can be found on You Tube, Teal Swan, The Spiritual Catalyst, "Ask Teal" Episodes!!
Blessings and Light to all of you always,
Carol 

Sunday, June 1, 2014

My First Angel Card Reading Event!

I just got in from my first Angel Card Reading Event for a fund raiser for someone who has Lou Gehrig's disease.  It was held at a local Holiday Inn, in the perfect room with an atrium and sunlight everywhere.  I was excited, calm and not a bit nervous like I can sometimes get from new experiences.  I set my table up with an Angel (of course), a candle, a beautiful picture of Archangel Gabriel who has been watching over me for years, laid over a sheer pink scarf with fake crystals on it.  I also brought my essential oils, and my crystals with me, wanting to turn on anyone I can with their own healing properties. 
It was a wonderful, beautiful experience, which gave me the opportunity to help guide loving souls through their journey here on earth at this time. I was blessed to meet like minded souls as I always seem to yearn for.
While we were waiting for clients, another Card Reader wanted me to do a reading for them, with my Romance Cards.  She was only going to choose one card.  Funny, the first card she chose the message was very clear, the relationship she is starting does not have enough chemistry to see it through.  She was obviously not happy with that card, and decided to choose another, and another, and another, after about six cards, she seemed satisfied enough to walk away.
My second client was male, who was somewhat skeptical.  He explained to me he just had a reading done by someone, and wanted to know what I would say compared to his other reading.  I explained I did not know everything, that the answers were all inside each of us, that I would just be a channel through spirit to help guide you in your journey here.  He was open and cool with that and we started.  He was questioning his "life purpose"  so I read his cards with Doreen Virtue's Life Purpose Cards.  I was certified by Doreen Virtue to be an Angel Card Reader last year. He was laid off and was questioning if he should change his career path or not.  The cards he pulled showed there was a recent job change, he was laid off and was searching new work. The cards he pulled totally related to his question, and gave him an answer and guidance, but he still seemed confused and not 100% sure. The more we spoke, the more confident he felt in making a decision he wanted to make!
The next woman I read, was a woman I know from Young Living Oils who is a retired therapist! Ha!  She sat down and I felt somewhat intimidated, and I actually told her that. She assured me to not be intimidated.  With that I started her reading, and every card resonated with things that were happening in her life.  It was so nice to see her giving thanks and blessings to me, while I was helping her!  It was a beautiful experience, helping one another in a beautiful, grateful way!  Amen!
Another reading I did was with a woman who was in a relationship with a man for twenty years.  She was feeling somewhat stuck, and was questioning the relationship.  Her first card spoke about communication, and expressing her feelings to help heal the relationship. Her reading spoke about not judging other's motives, because we do not know what they are unless we ask.  Her last card was about loving herself, and doing something she loved to do to take care of herself.  After talking, she remembered her love for music, and that her partner bought her a keyboard last year and she hasn't gotten the chance to take lessons yet.  Just by her reading, and us communicating, she learned many new paths to find her peace with her mate, and herself.  And the more we learn to love ourselves, the more our heart opens, and the more love pores in! 
The last person I did a reading for was for a young woman.  I was busy talking to two woman who had a table at the event because the event was very slow.  The young woman walked up to me and said excuse me, but I would love for you to do a reading for me!  She said she wanted a reading from me and was waiting for me to be "free", but I kept talking! (That's me!)  I was truly touched her expressing this to me, since I wasn't known by anyone in the room. We sat down for her reading and of course, once again, she was told what she needed to hear.  She was seeing a gentleman for a few months, and found out he was in another relationship at the same time.  She broke up with him, but was still having a hard time letting go of him, so she decided to remain friends with him but no romance.  She had met another guy who seemed amazing, but was still confused about what to do.  Her reading reaffirmed her desire to let go of him, but knew it was hard to do.  We spoke about ways to handle this, other choices to make, and questions to ask herself about why she doesn't want to let go.  It was an awesome reading, tears came to her eyes a few times, and we left hugging each other, as I did with most of the individuals I met.
I received many compliments about how passionate I am, how I explain things well, and how they enjoyed the reading and how I communicated it!  I was touched by their kind words, and feel so very grateful and blessed.  You see, I went there to help others, and through helping others, it came back to me, blessings for myself!  See how the Universe works, give out what you want to get, open your heart with love for others, do work you have passion for, and you will be blessed back.  A nice reward indeed, when I went into this today, not even thinking about myself! 
The day was very special and magical for me, and I came to many realizations.  This is just where I need to be now, sharing information and guidance with others to help them along their path.  These are the people I need to be around, like minded souls like myself, that are open to Angels, knowing they want to help us but we must first ask.  This event gave me confidence and reaffirmed in my mind that I am ready, I am worthy, and I do have much to share with the world!  I am finally a teacher, ready to teach what I know, but the funny thing is there is so much to know, I will never now it all!
Love and Blessings to all of you always!
Carol