I attended an amazing workshop by Teal Swan on Saturday, June 21st in Chicago. I just arrived in last night and want to explain my experiences...
Getting home at 12 pm I was exhausted. But, for some reason I had this crazy energy and had to clean and unclutter my Dining Room. I was happy, joyous, singing along while I was cleansing. The type of love and energy that filled my heart there is hard to explain. It is knowing you are love, and loved unconditionally, feeling like your heart is wide open to love. A feeling we don't always feel, some of us probably never. We struggle to feel this love, which is always about "self love", loving yourself, knowing you are worthy and powerful, and more important than anyone else out there that you care about. It's about putting your feelings first, your self first, without feeling bad about how the other person will react. It is to worry about caring for you more than you care for them. It's about finding your joy on a daily basis, asking this question, "How can I find joy today?" Asking the question, "What could I do to love myself today?" All of these teachings I have found in my spiritual mentor and leader, Teal Swan.
So, after going to bed at 4:00 in the morning, I awoke at 8:00 feeling totally amazing! My energy was so high and I felt at peace and content, and happy!! One thing I had to do today though, was to quit my job. The pain I have had in my body has been over thirty years, and I can't push myself any longer, caring for small children, giving them my energy when I need it now for myself. But, since I am a person who always has put others first, I worry about them more than me! How do I quit when I just committed to a year? But, I knew after speaking with Teal, I had to. (It was her advice) But, I was still anxious about it! So around 11:00 my boss calls, OMG I say, now I have to talk to her!! We spoke only for a few minutes before I told her I have some news and have to quit. To my total surprise, she was so understanding. She explained how they care about me and want me to take care of myself and get healthy! Why is it hard for us to understand people do care, not everyone is selfish! I briefly explained my discussion with Teal, and cried and cried to her about my pain, how long I have had it, and how I always just push myself. Teal explained she saw my energy as "terminally ill"!! Wow, holy shit!! Did that wake me up. For sure, she said, no you can't live your life this way any longer and I knew that. So, see how awesome the Universe is and how it loves us and wants to help us? I was so worried about them, and how to quit, and it just came! And it came in such a loving, compassionate way I was shocked!! And the amazing thing is the more we believe this, the more the Universe helps, so the easier it gets. It will be like going with the flow down the stream, instead of fighting where you are, racing back up, trying to be in a "better" place!!
After crying on the phone with her, I was actually relieved, and felt like I was SET FREE! Free from caring for four small children, bathing them, cooking for them, doing homework with them and even wiping their asses!! lol Free now to take care of me, myself, my pain that I have ignored for years and years!! Teal gave me the "permission" to stop, and sit home and rest and have faith the Universe will respond, and it did.
The rest of my day was filled with such joy and peace and happiness! I am calm and content without worries of the future and how financial abundance will flow, because I know it will in other ways!!
All of my Love and thanks goes out to this beautiful, amazing, compassionate soul, who only wants to help us grow as individuals, TO HELP CHANGE THE WORLD TO COMPASSION AND LOVE! I am blessed to have found her teachings, they can be found on You Tube, Teal Swan, The Spiritual Catalyst, "Ask Teal" Episodes!!
Blessings and Light to all of you always,
Carol
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