Woke up today in much more body pain than I have all week. I don't know why. I don't know if it could have been from the organic decaf I put into my body, or from going to the stores yesterday. I came home in severe pain, upper back spasms into my neck, I had to stop and take a bath. It was crazy that my pain increased that much. Could it really have been the energy from the people that's killing my body? It was serious pain! The pain calmed down a little, but still pretty bad. I took it easy this morning, started writing a bit and saying hello to my friends online. I had to go see Jessie, my old boss today, to say goodbye and she was going to pay me for the week! How grateful I am for that.
While I was driving the same route I have been for two years, my heart jumped for joy never having to travel this way again!! I appeared with sunflowers, and got to see the two children I won't care for anymore. It was great to see her and talk to her, she said how she totally, "Gets it, and understands!" She really softened my heart and made me feel loved, a love that was hard for me to accept before, and now I am embracing it. When I left, I shouted for joy, singing my heart out all the way home, knowing I am set free to care for myself and no one else for awhile!! Feeling loved and blessed!
Then, driving home I actually got to ask myself, "Boy, what do you want to do?" I realized I was hungry because I hadn't eaten in awhile, and I was getting dizzy. But, as I drove by the park, I needed to pull in and stop and I did. I had to recharge from my visit, walk on the earth and sit with a tree! How healing that is, and that's just what I did. And the birds were beautiful, singing their hearts out. I rested for awhile and enjoyed the earth.
Then I realized how hungry I was again, and went home to cook. How liberating it is to be able to be in limbo and not care. Not care about things getting done, bills getting paid, just having faith in the Universe, knowing it will send me exactly what I need, and wants me to e happy and take care of myself. I have been embracing my pain by going with my emotions an releasing them. It totally works!! I don't even cry long when those past emotions appear, maybe only even few minutes, and they pass on their own, and I am at peace once again.
After I ate I got on a Sykpe call with my new best buddie Irina! We talked for two hours about so much stuff. About how her emotions are taking her back to her past pain, and how she is releasing them. We talked about some of our new soul friends and how grateful we are and how awesome our trip was. Irina and I connected the minute we saw one another, she was my instant best friend, and openly telling everyone how lucky she felt to have met me. She shared her past with me which was pretty tough. Do you see how it only takes one person to express their pain and past, and it opens the door for others to follow. What a beautiful flow of energy and healing together. This is what Teal has done for me, for us, and for humanity.
Tomorrow I will be taking the day to go to the beach for myself. I am ready to venture out again, and can't wait to see the Ocean, it calls for me!
Namaste
Carol
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