Sunday ~ Day 27

Hi!
So, it's Sunday and my kids have plans.  It was cloudy today, then cleared up so I decided to hit the beach, not feeling much like staying home alone all day. 
Teal came out with another "Ask Teal" video about burying your dreams.  Not your future dreams, but you old dreams, the ones you wish happened but didn't.  The dreams you had about the past, that you wished turned out differenly.  These dreams can be holding us back from creating a new life of abundance.  She explained to write down your fantasy life, things you wish really did happen to you, and then bury it in a coffin.  Then burn the notes, and set yourself free.  It's funny how she wrote about this when I have been having tears of missing my ex and wishing things turned out so differently.  So, as I was taking a bath I cried, and grieved about not having what I wanted, my huge mansion with the man of my dreams, on a five acre wooded lot. We had plans made up for our "castle", the one we had been dreaming about since our young twenties.  I cried about raising my children along with my ex in their growing years, I cried wishing things were different, this was my worse cry yet.  I wasn't happy at all the entire morning, grieving over what could have been, being really unhappy I chose to have a life like this.  Basically wanting to give up.  Being so tired of fighting this fight, this pain and sadness that has haunted me my entire life.  Look at me, still crying over why I left my ex and changed my entire life to such struggle, not happy with being divorced for ten years raising my children alone.  I feel I have nothing, have no one, and am all alone in the world.  I hope going through these emotions will help release, integrate, and leave my vibration higher.  This is certainly not fun, not fun at all.
When I got to the beach it was chilly, so I went to the bay.  I met two High School senior girls, one was the lifeguard.  We talked the entire time I was there, they were so cute, so cool, and we talked about everything.  We talked about the changes going on now, how their generation will help change the world, and being connected as one.  They were happy young woman, and I enjoyed their company.  
It is always nice to get back home, so comforting for me! 
Namaste