I woke up feeling better today and relieved. Relieved after the day I had yesterday with my pain, my ego, and my inner child. So today I took it easy all morning, sitting at my computer writing. My daughter came in my room to talk, which she doesn't do very often anymore. She is my oldest and in the morning she usually likes her time alone in her room, doing her own thing, which is great she enjoys her time alone. Some of us are never alone, afraid of being by ourselves, afraid our ghosts may come out. Some people run their entire lives, not stopping to take one breath to self reflect. Not blame others, not complain about others, but reflect within ourselves to see how we are doing. To see how we are really "feeling" about things. Being alone is where we connect to our inner source, our inner guidance, helping us along the way to grow, evolve, integrate and become whole. Oneness is within ourselves, which starts with being honest with ourselves. Be honest with who we truly are, what we project to others, and what our pain is truly about. Then it integrates within us and goes away!
When I am yelling at you, what is really hurting inside of me? So many are unaware that this is happening, living in denial and blaming others. There was a time I would blame others for my crap too, but not anymore. I have learned, I have grown, we all can and will if we want to.
My daughter and I spoke a lot about her relationship with guys lately. This is the second guy she has spoken to for awhile, and he is not 100% there for her. The guys seem to get close, then pull away. We were discussing why this could be happening to her again. I tried to ask her how it made her feel, and then whatever those feelings are, try to tap into an experience from your childhood that made you feel that way. You could actually sit alone, close your eyes, and ask yourself when was the first time you felt that way, and usually an answer just pops in your head. Either a thought, a vision, anything will do. Once you get that thought, you could comfort that child in a way that will make you feel better. And just sit with those feelings and the child, and telling them, you are there with them now. This is actually called "inner child work", stuff we don't learn about unless you get to a therapist who believes in this technique, or hear it from others. The theory is, we attract what we feel, the vibrations we put out. That pain from childhood wants to be let out and the Universe will send people in our life to give us the opportunity to deal with it. It is only with "dealing with it", will we get over it, and be a match to other situations. My spiritual community says this is the time now for many of us due to the energy around, the time of going into our past, releasing, releasing. Like what I was feeling yesterday, those tears were tears of releasing. I just allowed it to happen, honoring myself and being where I needed to be to heal for that day.
And it is a new day, feeling so much better emotionally. My pain is still bad, but my emotions are better. My daughter and I spoke a lot about a book I asked her to read by the Hicks, "Sara", what amazing books. They are about the power of your thoughts, and how the universe works as far as the law of attraction. This is one of the most powerful books I have ever read about these laws, and it is written as a story, for young children to read. Solomon the eagle, knows all and helps Sara figure out how the power of our thoughts control our life. I am proud my daughter read the book finally, and now we can talk about it, reminding each other of our new outlook and new ways of thinking. One major point in the book, is to focus on what makes you "feel" good, not what makes you "feel" bad. Like if the news is sad and you are feeling bad about it, turn your attention onto what feels good. Then focus on good feelings, things that make you feel good, and decide what you want that will make you feel good, then the end result is, you manifested it. So powerful to learn at a young age if you could. I would love to go to all the elementary schools in the world and give each child a copy of this book, each school system should have their children read it for summer reading. It is a new way of thinking, it would transform the world if every child realized this at a young age. There are adults that will never learn this way of life, and I am only starting to now. It is beautiful to believe you can create what you want, it is already given to us, and so it is.
The book teaches to not complain about others issues either, because that is what you will draw to you. Negativity, feeling bad, and more things to feel badly about. Instead, to focus on their good qualities, and to be grateful, and then we will receive more grace, and receive what we want to create. It makes sense, seems so easy, right? It also depends on how old you are too, and it is a big change of a way to live if you are used to complaining about everyone and everything, "focusing" on things that make you feel "bad", instead of "good". So, I have decided to focus on things that make me feel "good", and find my joy. I am in a better place than I have been in ten years with regards to my life, and I know all of this work has helped me get there. And I have only just begun.
Namaste all day!
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