Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Tears Today from my Past

Hello
I have had a hard past few days it seems, with lots of tears, tears of loss, of separation, and feeling disconnected.  I have been crying over missing my ex the past day or two, I use to cry about missing him all the time.  But today, I can trust the feelings are deeper, and go back to my childhood, which I did.  I felt a big loss of separation with my Mother, and abandonment.  When I went back to those feelings, visions came to me like never before, about my birth, and prior to.  It made me cry, I cried all morning on and off, even as I drove in the car to go visit my family on the beach,  I was crying over some of it. 
                                               
It's all okay now, knowing I can manifest whatever I want.  For now I am trying to take it slow.  But that is hard to do sometimes, but then my back goes into a spasm and I have to stop and rest.  Rest is suppose to be my focus, but you know me how I have so many hobbies and projects I love to do.  I always have plenty of things to keep me busy, and doing art that I love to do. 

It is so sad, I truly felt my ex and I were true soul mates, here to stay together this lifetime and work it through, and come back together again.  I feel love for him now, and understanding and sympathy and compassion.  And I know he needs love, we all are broken, until we fix ourselves through love. Love and the pain of going back to search for the answers. I wish I could help him, but I can not, he hasn't spoken to me in years.

That's it for now, love and light! 

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