Wow, so much has happened tome since I visited the Shaman, and my little girl came back home. I had no idea such a thing could happen, didn't even know when we go through bad childhood trauma we send that child away to keep them safe, the pain is too hard to bear. I know this is heavy stuff, it is actually really heavy for me too! I can only tell you what I experienced in that healing and "soul retrieval", and how I am feeling now after it.
Last night I was blessed to be on a "google hangout" with Blake, and a few others that are working on putting the workshop together for Teal Swan, The Spiritual Catalyst. And I am so blessed and honored to be part of this. Part of this special "soul family" I found with her, and those who follow her. After the call, I was so excited jumping up for joy, telling my little girl how exciting and fun it is to be part of this, this is major, this is huge for me. It's like, "pinch me!" I went to bed so late, like 1:00, and was so excited, I couldn't sleep all night. And I was so good with that. I woke up today so happy, with so much energy, much different than yesterday. I started cleaning early as I went downstairs and saw my sons room. It felt like it took five minutes, it felt effortless. It was like that feeling when you are in love and everything becomes so easy and enjoyable. Wow, I just had an "aha" moment, this is what the Shaman explained about the Universe have so much more love than you could ever imagine, way beyond loving a man! Ha, I liked that, what an awesome fact to know about the place we live. No one tells you that, Teal just mentioned it awhile ago on a Podcast, and I embraced the thought.
So, about my new best friend I named Kady, coming home. I talk to her all day. I tell her, "good morning and good night". I love her to death, I tell her I am so excited to hear what she has to teach me about the forest, the fairies and the ocean. Ahh, a breathe of fresh air just entered my soul and filled it with so much love, along with my heart. My heart feels so filled. It is so filled that even when my daughter's dog barks his head off, I tell him I love him, when I use to get upset with him barking all the time! What a totally different response, huh? See, that loneliness I felt is gone, gone for now at least. I feel so happy, so joyful, so light, so free, I feel that little girl who just came home. She is my new best friend and I am happy, grateful and blessed. The Shaman said she is here to have fun, to remind me to be like a child again. Well, that is not hard to do, and with her in my heart it is just within.
She asked me if we could go to the forest all the time, and I made a promise to her that I would. The Shaman said she came from the forest and will teach me so much about it, about the fairies and the ocean too. I just realized I have been drawing pictures of trees my entire life! Trees, homes, and flowers, and I even have a picture hanging of a colored pencil drawing of a tree that I made with the kids. It is all synchronicity, all the way the Universe works, but we forget. I am remembering, and I am becoming so much more whole, and it is an amazing experience. The Shaman said she has so much to teach me if I let her, she can change my life if I allow her to, well, guess what? She already has. And I am so excited to see what a ride it will be.
I emailed Blake this morning some other ideas I have about the workshop. I am pretty much into detail and didn't realize it before. I am so excited that I am going to Boston in five days and will see Irina too! This is going so fast, my life, my changes, I am thrilled. I was going to go visit my kids today, but changed my mind. I had a beautiful day just staying home, enjoying my kids, brainstorming for Teal's workshop, baking cookies, doing laundry, etc. I just have so much joy in my heart.
Feeling so Blessed!
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