Hello
I finally went to see the four kids I use to care for! Oh my Lord, I didn't know how much I missed them. When I got to the house, the two families were together which was great. The kids all ran towards me, and I bent down to say hello filled with so many kisses! It was awesome, what a way to get recharged. And both moms gave me the biggest hugs ever, telling me how much they missed me too, feeling badly they never got in touch with me to reconnect.
They were on their way to a Talent Show they were having for the Camp they attended. so, I went along with them, picking up their parents too, who I know well. They were so sweet, asking me what I am doing, and how my kids were doing and genuinely caring. The Talent Show was cool, and the smaller two were on my lap. They told me the kids missed me a lot, and I felt badly that I didn't get there sooner. I felt the younger girls sadness, like I just left her, and I did. It made me sad. The other girl came up to me and hugged me so sweetly around my waist, and put her head on my belly, so lovingly and gently, it was so special. They showered me with so much love, helping me realize how much love I have around me. Boy, now I truly know what to do when I feel lonely, just go see them and be around them, accepting all the love they have to give back to me! I am so lucky and blessed to have them part of my life. I know now that I have to visit them much more often, planning to go for dinner at least one day a month, planed so it happens!
Time has just flown by for me since I have been back from Chicago in June, summer blinked by. I had the best summer ever, relaxing, caring for myself, realizing what I truly want to do here on this earth, and not worrying about one thing. Now, summer is almost over, with only a week to go, and it always saddens me to say goodbye to this time of the year. I live for summer all year, it is my favorite time of the year here in New Jersey, and hate to see it go. I love the beach, the ocean, the forest, the water, it all gives me so much energy, I don't know what I will do without it this winter. Last winter was very hard for me, so cold, not even wanting to go out into the crazy world, just wanting to stay in, cuddle by the fire and chill out with my kids. I don't know what is going on with housing for me, I may only be here for a few more months, eventually moving because of finances and my children wanting their own place. I don't know where I want to be, so many different choices I have, but would love a home with people in it, not really wanting to live "all alone". Growing up with six brothers, and having family around always, I love the company. Even in College, we use to have Sunday dinners at my house, with my brothers, and their wives, before they even had kids. It was so nice, I remember many BBQ's on Sundays, a family day to me still. I love sharing moments with others, laughing, bonding, having that connection. I do not have that enough with others now in my life, and I recognize that, and want that to change. There aren't many people I would want to live with though, either, being very picky because I feel their energy so much, and our energies have to match, or I have to leave the room. I even went into the Post Office the other day, and the Postman's energy was so bad, I couldn't even stand near him, I was bubbly, ready to pop with joy, and he was complaining and depressed. So, I stayed as far away from him as possible! So much new stuff going on in my life, that I have not been aware of before. Well, I actually was aware of it, but had no idea to what it was, or what was going on. I always felt, when I am so happy and feel high, people do not like that, I suppose it threatens them some how, and they get nasty, or give you that negative vibe. I am thankful I now have the knowledge to just walk away from them. Even if it is my own children, I walk away. Their energy always changes it we come back together. I even have realized how my energy has changed so much when I get back from a Teal Swan Workshop, that I can't be around my own children for a week or two, my energy is so high. Then, after about two weeks, they seem to get use to that energy and come around. It is a pretty crazy thing that all of this energy stuff and vibrational stuff is happening, and I never even knew it before, and so many others are still not aware of it. I would like to make you aware of it, because it is really important stuff. We are all energy, and people come into our life that we are a vibrational match to. High vibration, lower vibrations, all due to our thoughts, attitudes and beliefs. Obviously if we are really happy and positive, our vibration will be higher than someone who is sad and depressed. And since like attracts like, that is who will pop up into your life. So we can tell our own energy by who is appearing in our lives. My energy is higher than it has ever been, thanks to Teal Swan's Workshops, the inner child work I have been doing, and the Shaman that I have seen. I am on the road to so many big things, I can't wait to see them manifest!
Namaste
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