Teal Swan!!

Wow! I don't even know where to begin.  Being an Aquarian, I basically have been on a spiritual quest my entire life.  I remember thinking very young, what are we really hear for?  Then in seventh grade I picked up my first self help book by none other than Dr. Wayne Dyer. Everything he said made so much sense to me, and I loved studying psychology and spirituality.  Since my divorce ten years ago, I have plunged into my "spirituality" one hundred times more, without having a man to focus on! I have read many books, seen many speakers, attended many healings, but have not come across anyone like Teal Swan!  She is the encompass of everything, she is pure love, being here on earth at this time to empower all who suffer and want a change, and all who feel they deserve better, to help raise the vibration of this planet, and to build communities together with love, kindness and support.  To say she wants to make a change is an understatement!  From reforming Health Care, to the Justice and education system will be a start.  Her videos on you tube are self empowering, teaching us ways to handle and deal with any issue we feel we are stuck at in our life, and want to get through. She sees differently than us, seeing everything as energy, is an Intuitive healer, goes out of body, and runs workshops to empower all.
I was first turned onto Teal by a dear friend over a year ago, I was instantly in love! Amazed at such a beautiful woman, who has been through so much pain and suffering in her life, (she was abused, tortured and raped by a Mormon religious cult in Utah for over ten years) can transform for us, and help teach us a way of empowerment, focus, and creating our own reality.  If you have ever heard of Ester Hicks, The Power of Attraction, you got it right.  But, the difference for me is that Teal is so real, a real person, with suffering worse than we can imagine, but is all knowing, all loving, and her mission is to help change the world by empowering us, reminded us we came here to follow our dreams.  To remind us of who we are, and what we want, and bring this earth to a place of peace, love and enlightenment.  She will tell you just like all the others that "you create your own reality".  That we are where we are because we manifested it by our "thoughts".  It took me years to believe, and with Teal's help and explanations it is easier to understand.  Not only can you find videos of any issue you are going through such as, worrying too much, how to stay positive, how to love yourself, how to open your third eye, how to get "out of body", etc.! I am telling you, you name it she knows it!! 
I was first blessed to attend my first workshop held by Teal Swan in Tarrytown, NY in the fall of 2013.  She was holding a book signing and artwork exhibit on a Friday night, her workshop was held Saturday, and there were plans to meet on Sunday with whoever wanted to attend, just to get like minded souls together and hang out.  I attended her Friday night event alone, and as soon as I walked in, I was greeted by her first hand man, Blake.  How nice and friendly I thought, not knowing at all who he was.  Everyone I met was so friendly, and Teal was actually standing in the small room with all of us, just hanging out and talking to everyone! Wow, I was so excited to see her, feeling I already had known her from her videos.  She was signing books and I waited in line to have the book I just bought signed.  As I was watching her, after speaking with the person, she would take a step back and scan each person, and write in her book something.  She did not rush, like most authors would have, she wrote, and then handed the book to you. The time that she takes to connect with you is incredible, like no other I have ever seen.  When my turn came, she did the same, handed my book back to me, and she actually gives everyone a hug as well.  Amazing! And as she did this to me, I whispered in her ear, "I feel I have known you forever", and her reply was, "you have".  I don't even know where these words came from, I had no intent at all to even say that, never thinking that before. When I went outside to read her written words, she explained my mothering, well no longer needed for that matter?  What?  That's all I know to do is be a Mother, give, and do for others, especially for my children. But, this was the same message I have been receiving for the past year while I have been attending my "Mind, Body and Soul" expos in the area.  All the same message of letting go of my children, allowing them to fly and now to take care of me!  Yes, my journey to self love, how fun. She explained I do it to my self, pressure myself to still care for them, but they no longer want me to or need me to.  To let go, "you are free".  Okay, wow, I was so touched by the entire experience of her actually caring, and taking the time to deeply connect with another human, as long as it takes!  Wow, where did she come from, through heck and back, and look at her love and compassion for all.  And to enjoy the rest of her journey to help guide the globe to a more loving, compassionate, connected place, to a place to Oneness.  And that is one of the new big words in the Spiritual Community, "Oneness", we are all one, all the same, all connected, always and forever.  Wow, what a different, refreshing way to look at the world, instead of jealousy and power, turn to love and compassion.  I am lucky to have always been a very passionate, compassionate person.  Except for myself, being to hard on me, not forgiving enough from my past.  I am learning now, to forgive, and love, and move on.
 Her belief is we have been here millions of times, so many past lives not even worth talking about, because the point here, on this earth now, is to get what you want! To manifest whatever you want, she always is telling you that.  Because, that is the reason we came here in the first place!! To get what we want!  Pretty nice way to look at it to me, we can have what we want and be in a state of joy and love.  After I left her I could not wait to see what she wrote.  It seems like she wrote her own private message to each and every person there!  Her message to me was one I was receiving all year from other people as well, my three children are grown, let them spread their wings and fly!  They don't need me anymore, and now I am free to do whatever else it is I am here to do!  I was shocked after reading this, knowing she knows nothing about me. 
The night did not end there, she also put the small group of us, maybe forty people through an exercise to help release trauma held in our bodies.  She explained how when an animal gets hurt naturally their body trembles, it trembles to release the pain.  We hold our pain in our bodies, and this exercise can help release that pain.  She put us through many different body movements, and our bodies were trembling.  I left that night feeling so blessed to have been able to share that space with her, and in aww of her presence!
Teal runs her workshops very different than any other I have seen.  She actually invites someone up from the group, and chooses that person because of their energy.  She explains that the group will usually have the same vibration, the same energy, and our issues will usually be the same.  So she chooses the person who's energy best matches the group, so there will be a group healing as well.  The individual she picks will have to do some soul searching, to get to the root of their problem, at times some are hesitant.  But, she will be the first to tell you she plays hardball.  You will leave with a very clear message, following that message is on you.  Each person chosen sent me a message, especially the woman who was speaking about being a mother, and Teal telling her to let her children go.  To let them decide and make choices on their own, to grow up and be free. Of course that resonated with me, reassuring me to allow my children the freedom to grow and leave, without them feeling they have to stay with me because I have no other.
After the workshop I was able to talk to like minded souls, so happy and vibrant, all of us so excited to be there, to be in her presence, to be part of something so much bigger than ourselves.
I woke up on Sunday with the bad migraines I get that cause me to vomit. I was bummed and disappointed, looking for relief from attending such a high energy event.  But, today was the day we were meeting in Central Park, to hang out and get to know each other.  I was told Blake was going to be there, and was excited to have the opportunity to be able to hang out with him.  I dragged myself into the City, I am only twenty minutes away, pulled up on the street right near Central Park, and found a place to park right away.  The day was awesome, even through the pain.  I met the most beautiful people ever, including Blake.  We hung out in Central Park, and it was a beautiful day!  We talked, and even did some meditations.  I felt great having some new friends, with the same vision as me, the same like minded souls wanting to love and find peace in this world.  We are the change!

My Second workshop with Teal Swan
Now, I just returned from Atlanta, my second Workshop of Teal's.  I can't even to begin to explain my experience.  First off, it was planned on my Birthday!  When I saw that, I knew the Universe was telling me to go.  To go even though I have never flew alone, and rarely travel anymore.  But, remembering her message to me, "it's my time to be free", I assumed this was a good way to start.  To start caring for myself, and not only everyone else in my life.  I was a stay at home mom, a caretaker, and I have been a single mom of three for ten years.  I am the one who always gives, will give to you before myself, and am finally learning to slow down because my body is breaking down.  Crying in pain since College, with a bad injury to my neck from an injury in gymnastics in High School, leaving me with neck pain and migraines I have been vomiting with ever since.
As I planned my trip to Atlanta, a group of friends all connected through Teal, decided to rent a house instead of getting hotel rooms.  So much more personal, warm and loving.  I was lucky enough to have met a friend at Central Park, who I hooked up with and shared a room.  I left Friday morning to catch my flight, from a small airport in Mercer/Trenton.  As I was waiting in line, I turned around, and who was there but her! She was with her friend, but was joining me at the house.  I was thrilled to be on my journey with her and her friend.
 It was a journey in itself, just getting off the plane, taking two trains before we arrived at our destination.  Two girls from the house picked us up.  After arriving at the house, I unloaded myself, came downstairs to meet everyone who was there, about ten of us.  We all seemed to talk about our "stories", the pain and suffering we have been through in our lives.  It was so beautiful to see people you didn't even know, sharing their pain, and comforting each other with kind words of support.  As the day turned into night, more and more loving souls appeared at the door, all being greeted with words of love and of course hugs.  This is a hugging group!  You will not leave without receiving some serious healing hugs!  There was food being cooked for all by two beautiful sisters, who eat gluten and sugar free, just like I have been trying to do.  After eating we sat down for some meditations, and it was awesome.  We were asked to pick a partner, look in their eyes and repeat some affirmations, one being, "I love and except myself always".  Well, that was the start of my tears, and they didn't leave the entire weekend.  I suppose I do have a hard one with that, I do blame myself for a lot of mistakes I have made in the past, that has affected my children and myself a great deal.  It is hard for me to forgive myself, accept life as it is now, and let go!  It is a work in progress, and to say this weekend helped in every way to my growth is an understatement!
I woke up Saturday, it was my Birthday.  I actually woke up crying, missing my children, and they called me to say "Hello".  See, there I go again, feeling guilty I am in Atlanta alone, and not home with them.  I love my children dearly, they are the one that give me strength in my life.  I also woke in pretty bad pain, in my back, neck and that migraine I get that causes me to vomit.  I wasn't very happy to say the least.  I decided to volunteer, because I wanted to help and get involved.  My one friend from the house came with me.  We arrived with lots to do, we set up tables for Teal's artwork, jewelry, and a Billboard Campaign that is in the process.  I got to meet Blake again, and spent a few moments with him.  I also helped set up the chairs for the room, which was suppose to hold 200 loving souls.  Because we were there so early, we had the opportunity to grab a front row seat.  When it was time to be seated, I saw a man that looked like Teal's husband sitting right next to me, and it was him.  How awesome I thought.
After Teal appeared and sat down, she started with a help the group's energy become more in sync. Her workshop is run like no other I have ever been to, more like a psychologist diving deep into your issues, so you can deal with them, rid them, and shine! At her workshops there is always an overall thought or issue to deal with due to the energy of the group.  She started with a Chakra the mediation, and stopped at the solar plexus and said this is where most of us need the work done, about self esteem.  Wow, I know I have been working on this a great deal the past year, since so many individuals gave me messages as well.  She explained this to us and then wanted to start right away, I hesitated as I raised my hand, not 100% sure I wanted everyone to know my pain.  She chose a woman seated a few seats from me, who was staying in the house with us.  She spoke about self esteem, letting go of others for each of us to grow, and to love ourselves.  As she sat in front of me, so close I felt we were having our own private conversation as she connect with me through her eyes, I turned everything she was expressing to others, inward about myself.  About healing that inner child when the gentleman who fell into a whole had to accept his feelings of abandonment.  As much as he resisted, Teal kept probing, not giving up for him to acknowledge what happened to him and how he felt.  She explained about our "inner child", a child inside of us, that is always there, and always needs to be loved and comforted.  So it seems if we had past traumas as children, and did not express that pain, it resides inside of us still, in our bodies somewhere.  The emotions need to be released, expressed in order to heal.  The gentleman finally realized the pain that incident caused him, and was able to get through that pain and feeling of abandonment, and start to grow and heal from there.  I envisioned myself as a young child, and the age I came to when I asked myself how old was I when I was sad at home?  I was pretty young, and I was crying about my pain, my parents always argued, and I cried in bed a lot when I was young,  And my brothers and I fought a lot, and I recall being punched in the stomach all the time, and I couldn't breathe!
Another soul was chosen, another woman from the house!  She cried so many tears, asking why her two young dogs would die around the same time and leave her?  They were poisoned by a neighbor and she was heartbroken.  She said she put all of her stuff in storage, and decided to buy a mobile home, and go somewhere, but she had no idea as to where to go.  What Teal said to her was heartbreaking, explaining she needs to take off, and the dogs were holding her back!  She explained the dogs were leaving this earth now for her, so she could grow and continue on her journey.
 We stopped for lunch and I helped again selling Teal's artwork, jewelry and books.  It was so nice for me to meet so may beautiful like minded souls, speaking about how awesome and cool Teal was.  She is cool because she is so human, so real, has gone through so much pain and suffering, but has emerged through it all to "help us remember".  To help us remember who we truly are, what we are truly here to do.  When you look at life as coming down to this earth so we can manifest what we want, to have bliss, because that is all there is, love and bliss, is to look at the world with new fresh eyes.  It has helped me transform my thinking, on my way to manifesting all I desire.  Being a single mother for the past ten years, there has been many struggles.  Struggles with only being allowed to be a part time mother due to my ex wanting custody, and struggles with finances, being a stay at home mom and never working didn't help to provide for myself and three children after my divorce.  I literally cried the first few years, every day they were not with me.  It is still something I struggle with and am trying to let go of.  Now my children are growing up and want to spread their wings and fly.  So, I am on my own journey, one of healing myself and helping others.  So, when Teal explained we came here to be happy and to create what will make us happy, it woke something up inside, and made me realize wow, I can do that if it works.  So, that is where my mind has been leading towards the past few months, a new life, a new me, doing exactly what I want to do to be happy and in bliss.

The second session was just as awesome.  Teal chose one individual who ended up being a Doctor in Florida, speaking about reforming health care, how sad it is the hospitals keep the dying elderly hooked up to machines to live, instead of letting their bodies die, all for money.  We have all heard this before, but now there needs to be a change.  Teal spoke of her visions for the future, and reforming health care was one of them.  She was very inspiring.
So many of the individuals chosen had people to let go of.  As if we are all in the stages of transformation, and what no longer serves us needs to go, including some people as well, in order for the new, amazing energy to flow through!  My heart broke for the beautiful young woman who was so brave to be on stage and cry about loosing her two small dogs around the same time!  As Teal explained, they were holding her back, and now she is free to go to another place that will serve her well, but that is still a hard thing to chew.  Change is hard for many of us, the unknown.  I laugh because when I was young, I embraced it, I loved change, running around, visiting people, changing around my room, etc.  And now, I am learning again to have faith in the Universe.  It is freedom and liberating to allow the worries to fall, and have the feeling of peace and love inside.
Most of the people chosen were questioning their life path, where to go, what to do next, not being happy where they were in life.
Many times my migraine will make me vomit, sometimes in bed for two days vomiting, and now after eating a little lunch I felt that bad.  I finally had to get up in between her picking a new individual, and hang out in the bathroom awhile.  I had to vomit, was pretty sad, and then I hung out in the back of the room for awhile.  This was terrible!  It was my birthday, I wasn't home, I was with Teal Swan, and all I wanted to do was to enjoy the day, without my pain getting out of control.  And look, just great, so bad I had to get into the bathroom!  All I wanted to do was ask Teal why?  Why am I in so much pain?  I wanted to ask her to please help me because I can't do this anymore.  I have gone to so many Doctors with no one able to help free me of my pain.  Teal did explain to the gentleman that was stuck in the hole for a few hours that his back pain was from his emotions, blocked emotions that need to be released, making me realize she was talking to me as well.  My neck pain, my past traumas, well, I have lots of them!  Where should I start?  So I have a lot of work to do then, I said to myself. I have childhood pain, pain from my ex, and my children and I have hurt each other with our words as well.  It was so interesting, the gentlemen did not want to break down, and get to the root of the problem, avoiding his feelings, until Teal kept probing at them.  It is hard to let go, face the past we weren't even aware of happening, and being on stage in front of so many others.  I give everyone so much credit for getting on that stage with Teal, and opening up their heart to change, to come to a place of understanding, peace, and happiness, hopefully.  Very brave souls, each and every one of them was.  
Another soul appeared, and she was wearing very bright, eccentric clothing, she was African American with a beautiful smile on her face.  She explained how she was tired of people, and how they were, and how she felt she did not fit in.  Teal explained her bright clothes were because she wanted to "wake" everyone up! 

Everyone who was chosen to speak to Teal was very, very brave.  To sit in front of around 250 people, spilling your guts, and on Live stream is brave. I bless every one of them for having that courage.  And, in helping themselves, they helped us.  To realize we all have the same issues, going through the same thing at the time, to go inside and look within.  Then heal it, and turn it into self love, love thyself first and the rest will be bliss.  Because in loving ourselves we are expressing total Source/God energy to help change the energy and vibration of the planet to Love.  We can do it, I know we can.  And with new souls such as Teal, it will be done!  I am blessed and honored to be part of this at this time in life!

When it was completed, we helped clean up, and went our merry way home.  I got to the house and went straight upstairs to lay down.  I woke up around 9:30 and went downstairs because the girls said they were going to make me a Birthday cake and make homemade gluten free pizza! How awesome.  When I came down I sat on the couch to be still.  Friends came to talk, and as we were speaking about my pain being emotional I cried like a baby.  Two compassionate, loving friends who I had just met held me, hugged me, kissed me and consoled me, I was so upset I didn't even realize what was going on, I just went with the moment and let go.  After some time crying, I finally got to the table to sing.  They were all so sweet, I felt embarrassed so many were singing for me, not a sight I have had maybe even ever. It was so awesome, so much love in the air.  That's what's different about this group, they are all about loving and accepting you as their brother, because they know better, they know we are all one, all connected, all the same but different.  The love I felt that weekend was like no other.  I wasn't a mother, I was a friend.  I was a child who needed to be cared for and loved, and that is what I got!  Everyone was so kind, giving of themselves, compassionate and interested in you, it was incredible.  As I told my story, I received so much wisdom and caring from others, I went home holding all of it.  They filled my heart with love, so much love my cup is running over!  This feeling seems new for me, always questioning my past decisions, blaming myself for past pain and hurting others.  Self love I have been working on, but not like this.  This was what I needed to give me strength, to pick up the pieces and go, go fly and accomplish my dreams that have been in the works for years.  The group even brought gifts for one another, including small heart shaped glass hearts, and books to share, it was such a beautiful sight!  Blake, who works with Teal, even came to the house Saturday night after the Workshop.  I did not get to talk to him much because I wasn't downstairs long.  But, he had brought CD's for people, and when he found out it was my birthday, he said he had one extra and gave it to me!  Such a big heart, remember he was the first person to say "Hello" to me at the first workshop I attended!  "I think I am in the right spot!"  I am saying to myself now, with so much genuine love for one another, absolutely knowing without a doubt we are all one, one in the same, all here to help guide the Universe to more love!! I love it!  I am so thrilled I have found my other home, my soul family.  I never felt so much love in one place, in that house, in my entire life. I loved being a mother, and caring for my babies will always be the biggest joy in my life, but they are now grown, ready to fly away.  And I have realized I need to help the children, on a much broader scale, caring for as many as I can to show them the love they need, the love they are inside, and how they can accomplish whatever they want.

So, that is what I am doing, since I have gotten back, I have been so creative!  Wanting to write, to paint, to draw, to clean out my clutter, it's crazy!  The energy flowing through me is amazing, so free and happy.  Knowing all is well, and now I have a new "soul family", and the love that has filled into my heart from them, causing this amazing flow of energy through me.  Right now all is good, all is fine, and feels as if it will be better than okay, it will be wonderful and magical!  And we will all be able to shine our light so bright!
Amen, Namaste, Shante, Om