Day Spent with Anika and Erica

Hello
I got to spend the day today with the family I use to care for.  My daughters were suppose to come with me, and an argument occurred and they never made it.  I was upset they couldn't forget about it, and just come, but it is what I have done in the past as well.  I have gotten mad and not wanted to go when we had plans to do something as well.  I don't get why I was snotty so much, growing up, with my husband, and even to my children.  I was so blinded to it all, blinded that I was so snotty also.  I can not blame them for their actions, as they are a result of me, us, my husband and I.  I wish I could change so much from the past, but can not.  I can only accept today, and make better, calmer, more loving memories for us.

When I arrived, they were in a new home, a huge home compared to the small Cape they lived in before.  It was awesome to see them, and take selfies with them.  We played outside on the skateboards for awhile, and walked to the lake that they are five minutes from.  It was so different being in this new home of theirs, it is huge compared to the small cape they were in.  The older daughter actually said she liked her previous small cape cod better, being more homey, and telling me, "who needs this big house anyway!"  So cute she is, actually she's beautiful, blond curls in her hair, and beautiful blue eyes.  I am so blessed to have had wonderful families to be with, to help along this journey.  So many of them have touched my hearts forever.  And this family my children know very well because there were so many days I was in so much pain, one of them would come and help me.  The children loved my children caring for them more than me, I suppose they were more fun and free.  I was so thankful to them at the time, and my one daughter didn't have a job, so she came and helped me when I needed it, and loved them as well.  
The older boy was fishing, so I didn't get to see him very long.  I use to play basketball with him all the time, so he didn't feel as if I was only spending time with his two sisters, the girls.  He is a great kid as well, so much fun to be around.  And the youngest child, who we loved so much because she was only two years old when I started working for them, was the cutest thing ever.  She was tough, even trying to keep up with her brother outside, and very physical.   Skateboarding at three years old, wild and free.  She was just the cutest thing ever with her blonde curls as well, and ate every green vegetable I prepared for her.

It was great to see their Dad, as I was close to him because he relieved me after the day was over.  He is a really nice, kind, loving man, grateful for his life.  His wife is a Physical Therapist, and he left his job a few years ago and is raising the kids.  That was why I left, they no longer needed me.  But, we have always kept in touch, as I love them.  We enjoyed the day outside, walking in the woods to the lake, talking, and just hanging out.  It was sad to leave, as it always is for me, wondering when we will meet again.
I am trying to see time differently, not as so serious and stagnant, but free flowing, continuing, knowing I will see everyone again soon.