Day 11 ~ Friday

Good morning!
Today is the fourth of July, but its a rainy day and the parade's were all cancelled.  We had a storm last night, the rain was crazy, but with it left a beautiful cold front, a much needed relief. 
My pain is a little calmer, but still so much in pain.  I am going to get to work today on myself by watching some of Teal's videos regarding pain, and watching the Chicago Workshop again.  If my pain is past trauma childhood emotions, than it only makes sense to go there when I truly am in serious pain.  So, I did so some work today and realized how much my parents argued, and how scared I always felt as a child, scared and unsafe.  Supposedly, these are good things, good these feelings arose.  So much more to get to, I think, but it's all good!  Good to be growing, changing, and integrating the new.
It was a rainy day so I stayed in this morning and got on the computer.  Then went to the store with my daughter, we had a nice time.  We were all off today due to it being July 4th, so I cooked dinner.  We made different food, my daughter helped.  I bought corn on the cob and wanted to do something with it so my daughter created a cold corn salad with black beans, chic peas and avocado and it was great!  I also made turnips with parsley, garlic and onions and it was great too!  We had a nice, calm, bonding dinner, thank you for that.
Today was the first day I felt my daughters embraced my higher vibration and enjoyed it, instead of fighting it.  They were happier, lighter and more free, having more fun, being laid back.  It's a nice sigh of relief for a change!
Then I see l posting quotes on face book, about everyone being a mirror, and I still wonder about the complaining and negativity my daughters and I still have.  Where does it comes from? Maybe it's a journey back to knowing, to remembering who we are, and a process.  I always wanted to learn and do things instantly, never wanting to take the long road.  But, with this, I see I need patience, and growth takes time, like a life time, and never seems to stop.  As long as I keep feeling this way, I am on my way to true recovery, to a life filled with joy and bliss, doing what I want, when I want, along with the financial abundance I want so I can have the freedom to experience anything I want.  Anything like traveling to any oasis place I want, the beach, the Ocean, London, Italy, France, Greece, anywhere I want to visit.  I want to never have to worry about paying a bill, or a place to live, and want loved ones around me all of the time.  I want peace, love, happiness and health.  I want my children around me, family, loved ones, I want to feel the love and connection of others. 
Namaste ~