Day 17 ~ Thursday

Hello
So, it's already Thursday.  I will tell you I love being home!  I couldn't be bored for one second anyway, there is always something to do.  Or not!  I still try to put myself first and see what I feel like doing in a given day.  I always get on the computer, check in with my face book friends, and watch some new information from Teal.  I love to keep up with all of her recent videos, etc. because she always seems to give me messages I need to hear, things I was just thinking about!  It's crazy, I know.  It seems as with each step, there are new questions, and new answers, and more and more information, it truly is never ending!  I am still so happy waking up, still grateful to be where I am right now, definitely better than I was before.  I am happy taking care of myself, and probably need to pay attention to my body more, caring for it better.  I need to be doing yoga every single morning, and I haven't started yet.  My body needs to stretch, and is use to stretching from being a gymnast.  My pain is still here, and I am working through that.  I don't always remember though to stop when I am in bad pain, lay down, and ask my pain where it is from.  What does it want to tell me?  I do remember at times, but still don't get answers, but maybe I should be looking for feelings instead.  To see how the pain makes me feel, what does it do for me?  Teal did explain that once I take care of myself, change my life, don't abandon myself, and work through my past childhood traumas, my body won't do this to me anymore.  It is crying for me to stop and just be with it, and not change it, and that is what I have been working on.  Accepting exactly where I am, in pain and all!  But, I know now I will work through it, and I am on my way to recovery, and to peace and harmony within myself, and becoming whole.
I love my backyard, I hang out there everyday, the birds come all day to eat, and say hello, and sing, and it is magnificent!  I do my work outside, read outside, everything I can! I don't remember the last time I felt so at peace, so safe, and so okay about my future, knowing the Universe has bigger things in store for me!  I am ready, hear me roar!  Teal said to dive into the fire, and I am doing just that, working on myself each time an issue comes up with me, but not dwelling on it or forcing it to appear.  To just be, be in the moment, not having to run anywhere!  I love it, and see how much I am growing each day.  And I am grateful for my new journey, my new path, with Teal, Sarb, Blake, and my new/old soul family!
Namaste
Carol