Hello
I woke up feeling really tired and in alot of pain. Wondering why? Hmm, I will have to figure it out. Could it be because I ran around yesterday and did too much? Could it be the energy I picked up? Could it be my daughters attitude toward me? Hmmm, it will come to me I know, maybe it is all of it! So, I stayed home today. I have been truly enjoying my time hanging around the house! It's finally summer! I have nice plants in the backyard with a nice gazebo tent over my table. It's so quiet and serene I love it. I take my computer out and do some research I have wanted to do. It is a nice relaxing day, I am taking it easy due to my pain, just like Teal has suggested. Wow, it's still pretty crazy what happened. How I went on stage and asked her some deep emotional help. And what she said was crazy!
I watched the video again, and cried my eyes out so depressed. She told me I pretty much had to change my life drastically, and that's okay. I quit my job already, and feel awesome not having to take care of the four children. I am taking that energy and focusing on myself, and my soul is loving it! The other part of changing my life is living with my daughters. They have wanted to move out over a year and a half ago, and are still home due to finances. My eldest would have graduated five years ago, and did not have the opportunity to go away to College. They truly need to move on their journey and spread their wings, I feel their sadness more now than ever before! I love them and want the best for them, and we will manifest a way for them to get their own place.
For me, I may stay where I am and find some other woman that I know that would love to live together, other woman I know that respect Teal Swan as I do, and know of her. Their are a few I already have in my head, we will see what happens. I am going to Boston in August, and will see what happens then! I put the intent out, there it goes, thanks! It feels great already! I will tell you the more you go inside yourself, inside your heart to see what's going on there and how you feel, the easier it becomes. Then it just start flowing so easily, I love it, this is new for me!
Teal also said I was a slave driver and a victim my entire life, which I am changing now. No more slave driver for me, time to care for myself! She even said what I have been doing to myself was a form of self abuse! Wow, how sad, I haven't been very good to myself. I am so thrilled I am learning how to care for myself more and more each and every day!
Namaste
Carol
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