Day 12 ~ Saturday

Hello again!
Wow, what a beautiful day it has been, I am so very blessed and lucky to have been able to enjoy the day on the beach with my special niece, her honey, and her two young boys.  It was a perfect day on the beach with no humidity.  Now, driving down the shore I stay away from the Garden State Parkway, and I take the Turnpike to Route 18, where I grew up,and then the beach.  It is much less stressful, less crowded, and is only about 10-15 minutes longer, but worth it to me now, as I do not care for driving at all.  I played ball with my nephew, ran in the water with them, and walked the beach.  My niece and I talked about my new journey, and how I am learning along the way to love myself, and let go of my children, let go of the mothering I had, its different, over, and done now.  If we all took care of ourselves, and put our own feelings first, knowing how to love ourselves first, I feel then there would be peace in the world and major social change.  I am excited for that, we are talking about a new world order, one based on abundance, not fear and worry.  I have faith this will happen, with enough of us becoming more aware and conscious of this.  We also talked about family, and feeling how some of my family just wants their own inner circle, and that's just okay, but different for us.  But, I have many family members now who like their privacy, and don't want us inside, and that's fine, just different for me.  Thinks have been changing with my family a lot, since my parent's passed and a few of us have gotten divorced.  
My nieces new boyfriend is great, he told me when they have a place, I am welcome all the time.  I love him, I do, and I love them together, he is a wonderful, loving, thoughtful man, and is loving my nieces two sons unconditionally. When my niece left, I decided to stay, and did not want to leave, it was the most perfect day.  I am feeling blessed and grateful to have such beautiful family to enjoy the day with, and just be around.  Thank you Universe for that.
On the way home I stopped at a store for a new dress for the Workshop I will be attending of Teal Swan's in Boston.  My legs aren't attractive anymore, so I bought two long dresses which I am not use to wearing.  I love them, it's the "new" me, I feel like a hippy again.  I realized the dresses I have are tight fitting and I don't always want to wear tight dresses any longer, my taste is changing so much.  Sometimes people stare and it becomes annoying, thinking how we are not our body at all, but our heart and soul.  The tighter dresses are nice to wear out at night, but not running around all day like I wore them last summer. It's funny, this summer I have changed so much and barely like my clothes from last summer.  This is really one of the first times this has happened to me, I usually love my summer clothes, wearing them year from year.  I was happy I stopped at the store, and found some new clothes for my trip. Wow, this is the way we are meant to live our life, treating ourselves special, and knowing the Universe knows this, and will bring anything we want to us, It doesn't get much better than that. 
I have noticed I attract much more kind, loving people now, ever since I have been back from Chicago.  Everywhere I go, people have been so nice and friendly.  While walking on the streets, most people make eye contact now, it's really nice to connect, realizing how unconnected I have felt for years.
I got home late from the beach, around 9:30 pm.  I was going to do some inner work, but was too tired, and decided to take a much needed bath instead.  It was heavenly.  I went to be with a big smile on my face.
Namaste ~