Hello, another gorgeous day we had! The most perfect weather, cool breeze, sun was hot though. My brothers wife was having her friend over to swim and eat today, and she invited me, how sweet she is. She always makes me feel so loved, I was thinking how glad I am that my brother married her and they found each other. I told her that also today, and she was grateful. She's a hard working woman, cooking for everyone and not asking for help. I arrived later than everyone, but enjoyed being outside all day, and being with her and her company. My brother was working, but got home around 5:00. I stayed until 7:00 then wanted to get home for the fireworks. I love them, they are so beautiful, but if they are bad for the environment, then they should not be allowed.
I still have a lot of work to do on myself, but will take care of that tomorrow. I need to watch the video again from the workshop, because it brings so many emotions to me, and helps me to release the past pain. There are still so much pain that comes up from my childhood, feeling so unloved, and feeling like no one cared. I noticed I say that a lot to myself during the day at home, how no one cares about me, and things that should be done are not. Then, I finally realized its a trigger for me, to go back into my child and integrate those feelings within. There is so much pain going back, but I know it's work I have to do, but I do not seem to be in that painful place very long, I cry a bit, and then it's gone. I always seem to come back to a loving, grateful, joyous place.
I love being home, not having to work every day, just being able to do whatever it is I want to do. It still is an awesome feeling for me, and I still have no worries about financial abundance. I am trusting in the Universe to take over for me, and just flow downstream with the current this time. To be so free, that whatever happens I will accept and go with, and see what lesson it is I need to learn.
Love and Light always ~ Namaste
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