Day 19 ~ Saturday

Hello all ~
Wow, as I look at the change in my life since I have been back from Chicago, it's major.  Staying home and not working now has opened my eyes to so many things I never saw before.  It has given me faith in the Universe, faith to know "it is okay".  It will be okay because I love you so much, I will do anything for you to become whole.  Becoming whole means going back to that childhood pain, sitting with that pain, acknowledging that pain, and comforting that child in any way to make it feel better.  I love to repeat, "I am here with you now".  Because of that pain, we abandon ourselves, but we need to become whole.  To become more aware, more enlightened, to come to that place of oneness, it all begins inside our heart.  I know for some of you, this can be really painful in thought, but when you allow your feelings to go to the place of pain, and release those emotions, it becomes easier, the struggle is over, and instead of resisting you are allowing.  Allowing your feelings to come through, just being with that pain and sadness.  Teal told me I was afraid to feel, even though I cried many years over my divorce and my children.  But, those tears were one of "sorrow", feeling sorry for myself, crying, "why me"?  For years I did this, and finding information like "the law of attraction", helped me to watch what I focused on, and helped get me out of that pit I was in. 
I still have so many questions about why some things in my life turned out as they did, but when the time is right, the answer will appear.  I have no doubt in my mind anymore how awesome this Universe works, because I see it happening in my life now, and in the lives of the other old souls I am currently reconnecting with, how easy it is to manifest!  It's as easy as just thinking it, believing it, and so it is!  Wow, I love this way of thinking, it's like a relief, a big, huge relief off of my back and now I can breathe.  I do not have to be a prisoner any longer and live in "fear and worry" any longer now that I know.  And I want all of you to know the same thing, we are here to find our joy, and live in a state of abundance.  We were born pure light and love and will return to that state each time one of us becomes more whole.  It is a chain reaction, we are all part of that same change, what happens to one happens to the rest, for sure.  Teal said so many powerful things to me that day, and one of them was, "all you have to do is take care of yourself, see how easy that is"?  If we all just took care of ourselves, showered ourselves with love, do the appropriate work to grow, then this world will be the place I have always dreamt it would be, one of peace, love and harmony, all souls joined together as one!  What a breathe of fresh air!  I want you to remember, "We can do it, We are the Change"!  Don't ever forget that.  Teal, Sarbdeep and Blake, along with many other Spiritual Leaders are part of that change, and I am so proud to be part of that movement!  So much Love and Gratitude I have for them, and for my new life!  I wake up every day feeling so blessed about my new journey along, and feel so proud of myself for taking this path, and following what my heart and guides were telling me for years.  I take it easy, today I stayed around the house all day, working on my garden, my plants, watching "Teal" videos, catching up with computer work, it was a joyous day!  I am so grateful to be able to stay home and just be, be in my heart, and be in my pain.  When I feel serious pain in my body, I try to stop and rest, and ask my pain where it is from.  I will keep doing this until I get answers.  I keep getting new visions from my past childhood pain, but they are ones I did remember at some point, but totally forgot about.  So, I know my body is in the process of releasing these emotions all by itself, it wants to let them go, so they can integrate with me now, and help me to become one, become whole again! Sounds like a beautiful reward, doesn't it?  For each of us to become whole in Bliss!  I can't wait, and if I am this joyful in my life already, I can't wait to see where it will bring me.  But, I am not resistant to the now, to where I am, the pain I am in, and Teal said that was important.  That is why I have put myself, and my body first, before anyone else.  This is my time to heal!
Namaste ~