Good Morning!
Well, seems like that energy came back! I went to bed at 12:00 tired, but couldn't fall asleep. So I stayed up until 2:00 am writing. Went to bed then woke up at 4:00, then 5:00, then 6:30, and finally got up at 6:45. My head was rambling, about everything. I kept talking to Teal, and asking her questions but I don't remember what they were! But my heart is very happy today. My heart holds more love then ever before, this is what happened when I attended the Atlanta Workshop. I left there filled with love, feeling so loved, opening my heart that I didn't realized was so closed. So closed from not feeling loved as a child, not feeling protected. And now I know, I now know when I have a disagreement with my daughter and I try to identify my feelings, they are feelings of unworthiness and not feeling loved. So, this is a good step, I am now at least recognizing where these feelings are coming from, my childhood. So, all we are suppose to do is recognize this, cry, let it out and release these emotions, and they will integrate within all on their own, I can see Teal telling me that I do not need to know how this process happens, nor do I have to do anything for those emotions to integrate, they just do. That is powerful to me.
So, I am excited to see what the day will bring. I am spending the day with my other deep, spiritual friend, and have so much to talk to her about my work with Teal. We are going to see the earth, and hang out there for awhile. It's funny, we were blessed as children to have woods near us to hang out in, which I did daily as a child. I can remember days in the summer walking to the creek all alone, down the hill and around the corner, bathing our feet in the water, walking down the creek, catching pollywogs and bringing them home watching them bloom into frogs. Thank the Lord we had that nature to connect with. I still need it, and would rather be outside all day, then in the house.
After talking to my other friends, it seems as if many of us are digging deep down into these past painful emotions. Wow, it is time. It is great we are all going through this together on earth at this time. I remember Teal crying on one of her videos, crying while she was explaining how we do not need to suffer, and what the world looks like without suffering. It must have been a blissful memory, because she was so touched by it, no pain, no more suffering, all of us living in joy. I can't wait. She explains how Source only knows itself through us, that it is expanding and growing as we are. Wow, that's crazy to me, very different than the Catholic upbringing I had. We were taught to fear God, if we did wrong we would be punished. It's crazy, all for social order, and for control, so we do not see our own power. God forbid that would happen, we would change the world.
I am happy today, and I will dive back into my time with Teal on stage. I was going to watch it with my friend later, it would probably be a great healing session for me with a friend in attendance. I will let you know what happens.
Namaste ~
No comments:
Post a Comment